TGIF!! WHAT a week! It's hard to believe it was only 7 days ago that we returned home, relaxed and sun-kissed, from an idyllic week at a cottage. Since then we've made quite a shift - back to school, back to work and back to pants and long-sleeves!
Our not-so-little family has had some big firsts this week. ⠀
Our youngest started daycare for the first time. And although I'm confident that the centre he's attending is caring and more than capable, dropping him off each morning has been a tearful experience. His cries of 'No, Mommy!' from the moment we pull into the parking lot of the centre to the effort of prying his little hands free from their tight grip on my shirt as the patient day care director carries him away is nothing short of heart-wrenching. ⠀
And as I have myself a good old sobbing session in the van before pulling away I tell myself it will get easier. And it will.⠀
The older boys, who started Grades 2 and 4 this year, are only TOO willing to bound onto the school yard each morning to meet their classmates. All the same, my heartstrings are given another little tug.⠀
Then there's my girl. My not-so-little 'big' girl who had her first day at Kindergarten yesterday. As I watched her file into the school with her oversized backpack and slightly-nervous smile, I couldn't help but think back to the countless times she'd accompanied me, even before she was born, as I'd brought her older brothers to school. Her time had finally come to join them and she was so ready and so excited. And I can't help but feel like a little bit of my heart is left behind on that school yard as I drive away.
Parenthood is hard. It's holding tight and letting go. It's a constant act of shifting and adapting while being a consistent force in your child's life.⠀
This week has been a long one but we'll celebrate all our big firsts with our traditional pizza and movie tonight. And I'll be sure to get a lot of cuddle time in before Monday.